Published 2000 by Margaret Comics ISBN 4-08-847251-9
**Pg. 5**
**Pg. 101**
Yuzuru: There's no way I'm going to let him be happy.
Kayano's mom: Mamoru-san's other son, right? I think he's 2 years younger than Takeru-kun...he's been living with his mom since the divorce.
Kayano: I wonder if they got along as brothers.
Kayano's mom: I'm not sure. I don't know the details. Why do you ask that all of a sudden?
**Pg. 102**
Kayano: Why...? Well, doesn't it bother you at all, Mom? It's Takeru's dad's past family.
Kayano's mom: Well...I'd be lying if I said that it doesn't bother me, but I don't want to force the details out of him. I'd be most happy if Mamoru-san wants me to know.
**Pg. 103**
Kayano's thoughts: "I'm not going to force the details out of him"...is that because you have the confidence of being loved? I'm feeling insecure because I don't know.
//doki// [Kayano's heart thumps]
**Pg. 104**
Kayano: Takeru-kun...
//dokun// [Kayano's heart thumps]
Kayano's thoughts: Takeru-kun...don't make such a face. That face where you look like you think everyone's your enemy.
**Pg. 105**
Kayano's thoughts: This is the first time I've felt this way...that I'm afraid to talk to him. I'm this close to him...
**Pg. 106**
Takeru's friend: Don't you think he's mad about something?
Takeru's friend 2: Yes, there's a dark aura within this class.
//giiii giiii// [Takeru moving his chair]
Takeru's friend: You can't irritate him at these times.
Takeru's friend 2: Yes, everyone else is self-disciplined as well.
//gatan// [Takeru gets up from his chair]
//gara// [Takeru slides open door]
Youhei: ...Takeru-kun.
**Pg. 107**
Takeru: What are you trying to do?
**Pg. 108**
Shiina Sensei: What are you talking about?
Takeru: Stop acting like you don't know. Yuzuru was at school. You had something to do with it, right?
Shiina Sensei: I just look over his studying. I was asked by your mother.
Takeru: ....I see.
**Pg. 109**
Takeru: You're pretty busy babysitting kids. Trying to provoke me and trying to cause a burglary incident.
Shiina Sensei: I see...you realize all this and still ignore him.
**Pg. 110**
Shiina Sensei: The more you ignore him, the more foolish things he'll do. You don't feel sorry for your own little brother?
Takeru: ...He's not my brother anymore. It's just a bother when he depens on me.
Shiina Sensei: A bother? I think you have it wrong.
**Pg. 111**
Shiina Sensei: You're just scared.
//dokun// [Takeru's heart thumps hard]
Shinna Sensei: You...
Takeru: ...shut-up...
Shiina Sensei: You remember everytime you see Yuzuru-kun, right?
Takeru: Shut up!
Shiina Sensei: That you weren't loved by your mother.
//dan// [Takeru pushes Shiina Sensei against the wall]
**Pg. 112**
Shiina Sensei: I'm pitying you too, you know?
//bun// [Takeru pulls his arm back]
**Pg. 113**
//gashyaaaan// [glass shatters]
//pota// [Takeru's blood drops]
//kyaaaaaa// [shrieking]
**Pg. 114**
Kayano: ...What...? What do you mean he got hurt!? Youhei-kun!?
Youhei: There was a lot of blood...Takeru-kun broke the glass with his own hands.
Kayano: His own!?
//zoku// [Kayano gets a chill]
Kayano: Why would he do that?
Youhei: I don't know. Just...
**Pg. 115**
Youhei: It seems like Takeru-kun went back to his junior high character.
Kayano: What?
Youhei: Noone can go near him and even if he's with everyone, he always looks like he's by himself...!
//dokun// [Kayano's heart thumps]
**Pg. 116**
Youhei: What are we going to do...?
Kayano: Youhei-kun...
Youhei: I feel like Takeru-kun's gonna go somewhere far away!
//kura// [Kayano gets dizzy]
Kayano: ...Stop that...what are you saying, Youhei-kun...? Don't say such crazy things.
//dokun dokun// [Kayano's heart thumping]
Kayano's thoughts: Stop it. Stop it.
//dokun// [Kayano's heart thumps hard]
**Pg. 117**
//gui// [Kayano grabs Youhei]
Kayano: Where is Takeru-kun at!!?
Kayano's thoughts: Takeru-kun won't go anywhere. Because he told me that I could be by his side.
Youhei's words: "Takeru-kun left without saying anything..."
//dokin dokin// [Kayano's heart thumping]
**Pg. 118**
Kayano's thoughts: I don't want him to be alone.
//haa// [Kayano breathing hard from running]
Kayano: Takeru-kun!
**Pg. 119**
Kayano: I heard that you got hurt...
//dokin dokin// [Kayano's heart thumping]
Kayano: Is it true that you did it to yourself?
Takeru: Who told you that?
Kayano: Youhei-kun was really worried about you...!
**Pg. 120**
Takeru: He exaggerates too much. My hand just slipped.
Kayano: Takeru-kun!
//da// [Kayano rushes to Takeru]
Takeru: What!? Let go!
Kayano: Let me see that hand!
Takeru: I said let me go!
//gun// [Takeru pulls away]
**Pg. 121**
//pata pata// [blood dripping]
Kayano's thoughts: That's bad...that's not a wound you can get just by having your hand slip.
Kayano: Takeru-kun...?
**Pg. 122**
//tan// [Takeru starts to walk]
Kayano: Wait...!
//dokun dokun// [Kayano's heart thumping]
Kayano's thoughts: I can't believe he hurt himself...
Youhei's words: "I feel like Takeru's going to go somewhere far away"
Kayano: Takeru-kun...! No...
**Pg. 123**
Takeru: That's enough...let go.
Kayano: No! I won't let you be by yourself!
Kayano's thoughts: Takeru-kun's going to go down if he stays this way.
**Pg. 124**
Kayano: I'm sorry...I won't ask you what happened anymore, so please go back to your normal self...please don't hurt yourself anymore! Don't make yourself suffer like this!
**Pg. 125**
Kayano: I feel sorry for your body.
//gyu// [Kayano wraps a handkerchief around Takeru's hand]
Takeru: Ow...
Kayano: Oh, sorry...
Kayano's thoughts: Distress is...
**Pg. 126**
Kayano's thoughts: ...is only understood by those who are hurt. I overdid it by asking him to share his pain with me. I can't do anything.
Kayano: I'm sorry...
Kayano's thoughts: I'm just an insensitive person.
Takeru: You're such a nosy woman.
//zuki// [Kayano hurt (emotionally)]
**Pg. 127**
Takeru: You put your neck into every little thing and worry and cry on your own. I can't handle you.
//guni guni// [Takeru rubs off Kayano's tears with his arm]
Kayano: Uh!?
**Pg. 128**
Kayano: Takeru-kun...?
Takeru: When I'm with you, I get scared that my true feelings are going to come out.
**Pg. 129**
//tokun// [Kayano's heart thumps lightly]
Kayano: Yes...you can let it out, Takeru-kun.
Kayano's thoughts: I'm not scared. I'll accept any side of you.
**Pg. 130**
Kayano's thoughts: We're okay now. If there's something sad, we'll cry together. If there's something happy, let's laugh together. I'll stay by your side.
**Pg. 131**
Kayano's thoughts: Whatever happens.
Kayano: What's wrong, Takeru-kun? Yuzuru-kun...! He's still coming to this school!?
**Pg. 132**
//da// [Yuzuru runs off]
Kayano's thoughts: Is he going to do something again!?
//da// [Kayano starts to run]
Kayano: Wait...!
Takeru: I'll go.
**Pg. 133**
//da// [Takeru runs after Yuzuru]
Kayano: Takeru-kun!? Wait!
Kayano's thoughts: What's going on!? Wasn't Takeru-kun ignoring him? I don't know if it's hate or love between them.
**Pg. 134**
Kayano's thoughts: I just know that if Takeru-kun's going to face that wound, I won't hesitate anymore either.
**Pg. 135**
Kayano's thoughts: That door is going to open now.
*******Part 16*******
**Pg. 139**
Kayano's thoughts: That pain that he was hesitating to face. Don't hurt anymore and don't suffer anymore. Let's go forward. To heal that wound...
**Pg. 140**
Takeru: Did you find him!?
Kayano: He's not in the back yard.
Kayano's thoughts: Where did Yuzuru-kun go...? He's not going to do something to Takeru-kun again, is he?
Takeru: Kayano. You know that Yuzuru's the one who set up that burglary incident, right?
//doki// [Kayano's heart thumps]
Kayano's thoughts: ...What!?
**Pg. 141**
Kayano's thoughts: He knew...
Takeru: Sorry to worry you.
Kayano: Why are you apologizing!? You're the one who's suffering after Yuzuru-kun did that to you...
Takeru: You don't have to worry about me...I'm the one who hurt him first.
**Pg. 142**
//dokin// [Kayano's heart thumps]
Kayano's thoughts: What...? Hurt him?
Takeru: ...When I was a kid, I pushed Yuzuru down the stairs when his body was already weak as it is. He fell on top of a vase and he got hurt really bad.
**Pg. 143**
Takeru: He still has a scar on his neck from that incident. That scar will probably never disappear.
//doku// [Kayano's heart thumps]
Kayano's thoughts: This is Takeru-kun's wound...? That's why you were ignoring him? To face the one you hurt.
**Pg. 144**
Rika's words: "Takeru has a weak side to him too"
Takeru: It's matter of fact for him to hate me.
Kayano: Don't say that...
Yuzuru's words: "He's the one who doesn't deserve to get loved"
Kayano's thoughts: That's why he hates Takeru-kun? Because Takeru-kun hurt him...?
//zukin// [Kayano hurt (emotionally)]
Kayano's thoughts: But wait...
**Pg. 145**
Boy's words: "Are you really that Takeru Edogawa's little brother?"
Yuzuru's words: "Yes, it's true!"
Kayano's thoughts: Those eyes weren't only hate.
//pasa// [picture falls to ground]
//dokin// [Kayano's heart thumps]
Kayano: This picture...!
**Pg. 146**
Kayano: Yuzuru-kun took this...!
Takeru: Let me see.
Yuzuru's words: "I can develop as many as I want."
Kayano: On the roof top...!
Yuzuru's words: "That's a scandal!"
**Pg. 147**
Kayano's thoughts: Why do you do this? Is this revenge against Takeru-kun?
Yuzuru's words: "You're the one who's going to bring Takeru Edogawa unhappiness" "Why do you like such a defect?"
Kayano's thoughts: What on earth...
**Pg. 148**
Kayano's thoughts: ...do you really want, Yuzuru-kun?
Takeru: What are you doing, Yuzuru?
**Pg. 149**
Yuzuru: ...It's no good trying to pick it up. I'll send it to your house next.
//dokin// [Kayano's heart thumps]
Kayano's thoughts: What!?
Yuzuru: You guys are over now.
Kayano: What...!
Kayano's thoughts: Over?
Yuzuru: Everyone's going to object to it and you'll have to break-up. Ha ha ha!
**Pg. 150**
Yuzuru: It's your fault for loving your future brother, Kayano-san.
//tan tan// [Takeru walking up the stairs]
Takeru: I wouldn't have picked her in the first place if this crap was going to ruin our relationship.
**Pg. 151**
//basa// [Takeru drops the pictures]
Takeru: Don't mess with Kayano anymore than this.
Kayano's thoughts: Takeru-kun...
Yuzuru: Kayano-san's that important to you?
**Pg. 152**
Yuzuru: You looked stupid just now hugging her. Kayano-san is...Kayano-san's a stranger!
//da// [Yuzuru runs down the stairs]
Kayano's thoughts: What!?
Takeru: Yuzuru!
**Pg. 153**
//don// [Yuzuru pushes Kayano]
Kayano: Ahh! Ow...
Kayano's thoughts: Wh...what?
//jiiiin// [Kayano's wound hurting]
//da// [Takeru runs to Kayano]
Takeru: Kayano!
Kayano: Oh...I'm fine.
Kayano's thoughts: Yuzuru-kun...? Maybe he doesn't hate Takeru-kun, but...
**Pg. 154**
Takeru: You better quit it, Yuzuru. You're mad at me, right!?
Kayano: Hey...wait a second, Takeru-kun!
Yuzuru: You're always going to protect Kayano-san...I'm the one who's your real sibling!
//doki// [Kayano's heart thumps]
Kayano's thoughts: As I thought. Yuzuru-kun wants Takeru-kun's love.
Yuzuru: What's with the new family...?
**Pg. 155**
Kayano's thoughts: But he was ignored by Takeru-kun and became like this...
Yuzuru: I won't forgive you...you...tired to kill me.
Kayano: What...what are you talking about!? Stop saying such stupid things!
**Pg. 156**
Takeru: It's alright, Kayano.
Kayano's thoughts: ...what?
Takeru: It's true that I wished he were gone.
Takeru's words: "I pushed Yuzuru down the stairs when his body was already weak as it is"
Takeru: I thought you were in the way.
**Pg. 157**
Kayano: Takeru-kun...! Why do you say that!? You're going to hurt Yuzuru-kun even more!
Yuzuru: You...don't like me...because I took Mom's attention...
**Pg. 158**
Yuzuru: That's why you hate me, right!?
//don// [Yuzuru pushes Takeru]
Kayano: Yuzuru-kun!
Yuzuru: You're an asshole!
//don// [Yuzuru pounds on Takeru]
Yuzuru: You don't have the right to be loved!
Kayano: Stop...
**Pg. 159**
Yuzuru: You...!
//don don// [Yuzuru pounding on Takeru]
Kayano's thoughts: Why...why do you keep on hating each other?
Takeru's words: "It's a matter of fact that he hates me"
Kayano's thoughts: Why aren't you saying anything and just taking his anger? And...blaming yourself?
Kayano: Stop it...
**Pg. 160**
Kayano's thoughts: Takeru-kun.
Yuzuru: You...!
//hi hiku// [Yuzuru crying]
Kayano's thoughts: Yuzuru-kun...!
//don// [Yuzuru pounds on Takeru]
Yuzuru: You should just die....!
Kayano: Stop it already!
Yuzuru: Let me go!
//geho// [Yuzuru coughing]
Takeru: ...It's alright, Kayano.
**Pg. 161**
//pan// [Kayano slaps Takeru]
Kayano: What's alright, Takeru-kun? You know, right? Yuzuru-kun really loves you.
**Pg. 162**
Kayano: So why do you try to make him hate you?
Takeru's words: "I thought you were in the way"
Kayano: Are you trying to blame yourself this way? Or...
//keho// [Yuzuru coughs]
Kayano: ...do you really hate Yuzuru-kun?
//dokun// [Yuzuru's heart thumps loudly]
**Pg. 163**
Kayano's thoughts: Please tell me that I'm wrong. Save Yuzuru-kun.
//geho// [Yuzuru coughs]
Kayano: Say something, Takeru-kun!
Yuzuru: You don't have to do this anymore!
**Pg. 164**
Yuzuru //hi// [crying]: I don't want to hear anymore...
//geho geho// [Yuzuru coughing]
Kayano's thoughts: ...Yuzuru-kun...?
Kayano: ...Yuzuru-kun? What's wrong?
//dokun// [Takeru's heart thumps]
//geho// [Yuzuru coughs harshly]
Kayano: Yuzuru-kun?
**Pg. 165**
Kayano: Yuzuru-kun!?
//geho geho// [Yuzuru coughing]
Takeru: Hey..Yuzuru. Yuzuru!
//geho geho geho// [Yuzuru coughing loudly]
**Pg. 166**
Takeru: Kayano...go see if the school nurse is in.
Kayano: What?
Takeru: He has asthma!
Kayano's thoughts: What!?
//doki// [Kayano's heart thumps]
//gui// [Takeru carries Yuzuru]
**Pg. 167**
Kayano's thoughts: Takeru-kun...
Kayano: But, Takeru-kun, your hand...
Takeru: Just go, Kayano!
Kayano: ...Okay.
//da// [Kayano takes off]
Kayano's thoughts: It's not that the love isn't there.
**Pg. 168**
Kayano's thoughts: However long you're apart or however many times you fight, you're still family. They just both can't express themselves right because of their past.
//geho// [Yuzuru coughing]
**Pg. 169**
Yuzuru: Brother...I...I love you. It's true...
//hiku hiku// [Yuzuru crying]
Takeru: Alright...don't force yourself to talk.
Kayano's thoughts: I want to believe that.
**Pg. 170**
Shiina Sensei: You don't have to worry. He'll be fine after he rests awhile. His asthma's already fixed.
//shya// [Shiina Sensei shuts the curtains]
//haaa haa// [Takeru out of breath]
**Pg. 171**
Shiina Sensei: I never thought you could be such in a frezy.
//muka// [Takeru gets mad]
Takeru: Shut the hell up.
Shiina Sensei: You better treat your wound as soon as you can. I'll take Yuzuru-kun home later.
//bata bata// [Kayano running]
//gara// [Kayano slides open door]
Kayano: Takeru-kun, what are we going to do? The school nurse is out...
**Pg. 172**
Kayano's thoughts: Takeru-kun?
Kayano: Oh...he's asleep.
Kayano's thoughts: Good. He calmed down.
Takeru: ...He doesn't change at all.
**Pg. 173**
//tokun// [Kayano's heart thumps lightly]
Kayano's thoughts: Takeru-kun...
Takeru: His body was weak since he was a kid. My mom always had to give him constant attention.
Takeru's words (as a child): "Mom, can you read me a book?"
Takeru's mom: "I'm sorry, Takeru. Yuzuru has a fever. Can you play by yourself?"
Takeru: I was envious of Yuzuru...
Takeru's mom: "You're his big brother, right? You can take it."
**Pg. 174**
Takeru: That was all, but...
Kayano's thoughts: The closed doors are opening up little by little.
Yuzuru (as a child): Brother, let's play. Play with me.
Takeru (as a child): Go over there, Yuzuru. I'm drawing Mom right now.
//pa// [Yuzuru (as a child) takes away the drawing]
Takeru (as a child): Hey!
**Pg. 175**
Takeru (as a child): Give it back to me, stupid! Yuzuru! I told you to give it back!
//biri// [paper rips]
Takeru's mom: What are you guys being loud for? Takeru! Don't let your brother out of the room, okay!?
Yuzuru (as a child): Play!
**Pg. 176**
Takeru's mom: I told you to stay in the room...
//don// [Takeru pushes Yuzuru down the stairs]
//kyaaaaa// [Takeru's mom shrieking]
//gashyaaaan// [vase shatters]
Takeru: Noone blamed me.
**Pg. 177**
Takeru: Instead, my mom, tired of child caring, and my dad, who was always busy with work, began to blame themselves about it. They ended up getting a divorce.
Kayano: ...That's not your fault, Takeru-kun. That was their problem, right?
Takeru: ...But I was the cause of it. I shattered everything.
**Pg. 178**
Takeru: I felt lighter with him him hating me...because we're not going to be able to go back to the old family.
Kayano's thoughts: That's why you were purposely cold to Yuzuru-kun? Takeru-kun is always like that. He just takes everything on himself...He tries to come up with a solution on his own.
Kayano: Even if you can't go back, you can do it over.
**Pg. 179**
Kayano: If there's love there.
**Pg. 180**
Takeru: There is.
Kayano's thoughts: We got out of the emotional forest...
**Pg. 181**
Kayano's thoughts: And the light starts to shine through. You can lose your way and you can even wander...as long as you get there.
<END OF Akuma de Sourou - Volume 4>
